As someone who has had to work my ass off to earn my emotional security through the years, I understand my clients when they constantly text me asking if the latest date is really interested in them. I’ve learned from all of these experiences that if you need to host a play by play viewing party, your anxiety has been activated and its time to get to work.Read More
Every culture is marked by their differences in cuisine, wine, traditions, and dating. So naturally, when I moved from my simple, no- drama Indian dating style to the flaky, avoidant dating styles of New York City, I was met with my biggest culture shock. While I could spice up the bland pizzas and ham and cheeses with some hot sauce here and there, I could not figure out the magic ingredients to having a stable relationship here.Read More
More and more of my friends and clients are tired of online dating and are willingly choosing to remain single. Yet, it is not the choice that comes with empowerment and exhilaration, it is the choice that comes from exhaustion and hopelessness.Read More
Most of us have heard from experts and the internet to “be ourselves” when we meet new people. Professionally, personally, and, most of all, romantically, “conforming” has shown itself in constant, varying patterns. How many times have you been on a date and heard “I like jazz Music too!”? It can be difficult to know whether people are being truthful or trying to please you.
What is Conforming?
In the dating world, conforming is when you act similarly to the person you are dating — in personality, interests, or experiences– even if it may not be how you typically act. Pick up artists, in particular, will increase their chances of “scoring” by conforming to the answers and moods of the person in question. It’s an understandable practice — when you’re nervous before a first date, you may find yourself accidentally blurting out, “Me? I also love death metal!” just to make a connection with the cutie sitting across from you at the table. I totally get it– you’re looking for things to talk about to make the conversation for the other person easy and enjoyable even if you are telling half-truths left and right. But while conforming may be the easiest way to go about your dinner date conversation in the moment, you run many risks when you offhandedly agree to everything your date says and does.
This Risks of Conforming
In the entire process of conforming, you lose the essence of a first date– the fun. While we lie and placate the other person, we stress ourselves in multiple ways. On the surface, when we conform, we are under pressure to know the subject we claim to love, and know it thoroughly. Moreover, we are constantly worried about anything blowing our covers.
Going beyond this stress, we also miss the chance to accurately determine our compatibility with the other person. Feigning interest in something that actually bores you will only jeopardize the chances of both of you getting to know each other well. Another embarrassing effect of conforming can be the chances of revealing your false interest several dates later; when your date invites you to the Dark Tranquility concert next week and you absentmindedly reply, “Who?”
Not only is a situation like this embarrassing, but it can also break the trust of the person you’re dating. As many people value trust in a relationship, showing a potential partner that you already aren’t being 100% truthful with them may be a breach in their trust. While of course this wasn’t your initial intention, your goal to please your date may backfire more severely than you would think.
My Experience with Conforming
I once dated a man who completely swept me off my feet with his interests in music and travel. I was intrigued by the fact that he had studied jazz history and traveled all over France just like I had. Moreover, the fact that he was older and more mature was another bonus. I indulged him for a couple more dates until I decided to take him to a jazz bar in New York. I was shocked that I had not noticed the fake ID he had been using to get into every bar we had been going to. To exacerbate the situation, the young gentleman did not seem to have any interest in any of the jazz numbers the live band was playing. After all that, I was not interested to have a look at his passport for his real name, age or even his Schengen Visa for Paris.
So the next time you are on a first date, don’t conform to every single thing your date says or does. Instead, express genuine interest in what they are talking about and ask them to tell you more about it. That way, you can still enjoy a lively conversation about something your date is passionate about while still being truthful to yourself. So if you want a genuine shot at a happily-ever-after in jazz world or Paris, be honest, be true and be you.
Human Design is a spiritual system aimed at helping you better understand your soul’s purpose. Drawing on the chakra system, the concept of energy, the Kabbalah, the I Ching and various other spiritual systems, Human Design has taken over in popularity among Millennials. Originally conceived by a man named Alan (Robert) Krakower in the 1980s, human design has become a point of interest for those beginning the spiritual journey. Krakower originally created the system after a very unusual mystical experience in Ibiza, Spain and continued to teach what he learned until his death a few years ago. While there are many layers to the human design system, its foundational information focuses on type.
Overview of Human Design Types
In the human design system there are 4 types: Manifestor, Manifesting Generator & Generator, Projector, and Reflector. According to the human design system, Manifestors used to be our kings and queens; generators, our slaves; projectors, our knowledgeable sages; and reflectors, our wisest people. Manifestors are rare, less than 10% of the population, yet our society and culture trains most people to act like a manifestor. It is that go getter attitude that reminds you to follow through on every brilliant idea you come up with on your own. This is particularly problematic for Manifesting Generators and Generators who make up at least 70% of our world population. Generators are here to respond, often to what manifestors put out in the world. It is little wonder why conventional dating advice simply does not work for most people - especially men. If you are born to respond, you have to stop trying to be something you are not.
Why Manifesting Generators and Generators are Important
The overarching idea behind human design is to give people the tools to better understand the role they play in the Universe. Some of us are designed to create energy for others and some of us are designed to use that energy wisely. Some of us are born leaders, others of us are born to help bring those ideas to fruition. I have found that the concepts are particularly helpful in my work as a relationship coach as it helps a client question if they have the RIGHT work and the RIGHT relationships. 70% of us are designed to focus on finding the RIGHT work and family but our society and culture tells us to disregard relationships, marriage and family for entrepreneur or work related endeavors that seek to simply create a lot of money and status.
Where Generators Go Wrong in Dating
After years of working toward a goal that my client’s believed they wanted, many become exhausted and frustrated. Frustration is the sign that the 70% of us are NOT living true to our own purpose. We are forcing things to happen rather than following the signs. We are chasing and busy trying to manifest when we are not listening to our intuition. We are busy running around instead of channeling our creativity. This is the plight of a generator or manifesting generator who is out of balance and not living true to their nature.
For those generators that discover that they can’t rush decisions and need to exercise more patience (and perhaps trust in the Universe), the transition is excruciatingly difficult. It often shows up most prominently in the development of new relationships, especially if the person is a generator male. Believing that they now need to wait for a woman or a person to talk to them before responding to the opportunity (e.g. asking for a date), generators miss many dating opportunities causing even more frustration.
Why Living your Design Helps your Dating Life
In order for a generator or manifesting generator to date correctly, they must be living their design and taking care of their energy. It is only in those moments of living in the present, that you can actually see the other person’s smile (more than enough of a sign to respond to), their body language (a hair flip may be enough to respond to), or if you have more intuitive thoughts, you can listen in for another sign to respond to. Everywhere you go, there are people and situations to respond to. For the generator, dating should be a smorgasbord of opportunity. Unfortunately, we are all so closed down energetically and emotionally that we simply do not see it that way. We get stuck on rules that are meant for other types and miss the opportunities.
Online Dating for MG and Generators
Online dating should be part of the dating strategy for MGs and generators. Why? A profile is enough to respond to! Too many MGs and generators confuse response with needing to wait for an invitation. They are two different strategies. If you see a profile you like and your gut response is “hell yes!” then it is more than enough information to respond to. Go ahead and start a conversation. Overthinking at this stage is not helpful.
Many of my male generator clients struggle with the idea of response simply because their perception of something to respond to is a verbal conversation. It is not. It can be a recognition that your energy elevated in the presence of a particular person of interest. It could be that they smiled at you and that is enough to check in with your gut and respond “yes” or “no.” It could be that you simply see someone you are interested and it is a “hell yes” response to explore what the connection is about. Generators are built to respond to the things that light them up - including people they meet along the way. Anything less than following you simple “yes” or “no” gut strategy means you are not dating according to your type.
If you are a Manifesting Generator, this process works much more quickly. The trick is to be much more conscious of the process so that you are responding to the people that light you up and make you happy and not giving too much attention to those people that bring you down.
Final Note for Pure Generators
If you are a pure generator, it is imperative that you live according to your design and be authentically who you are. Once you commit your energy to exploring a dating opportunity with someone, you will be pulled to explore the entire relationship from beginning to end. You do not have the superpower of stopping that energetic pull like your manifesting generator friends. Discernment will be your best friend - especially if you have emotional authority. Do not rush to respond or feel like you need to go to the other person’s pace. Discerning choices will help you stay balanced and help you manifest your desires. If, however, you are like me and have had a slew of karmic relationships show up, don’t get dismayed. You learn a lot from these people that will serve you well when it is time to meet your soulmate.
“Of all the liars in the world, sometimes the worst are our own fears.”
— Rudyard Kipling
Over the past two week alone, I’ve had multiple conversations with men about the “crazy” women they have dated and want to run away from. Each time I hear a story, I want to laugh. It is so readily apparent that there is such fear of emotions in our culture that even the slightest difficulty in making a decision sends non-emotional or emotionally avoidant men running for the hills. Emotionally secure people simply do not have trouble handling the emotions of others but emotionally insecure people often do not realize that their reaction to someone else is a sign that personal growth work is needed (and yes, even if you are an empath. Sensitivity is not an excuse!)
This type of language also indicates a complete lack of education around how someone’s relationship history, stressful conversations and their physiological responses can morph into a really unpleasant and toxic experiences.
The Conversation Has Started
The good news is that men are asking for help to better understand why emotional people act the way they do. It has started a conversation, at the very least, which is a breath of fresh air. As a deeply emotional woman myself, I cannot tell you how painful it is to be completely misunderstood simply because I’m having a bad day. At this point in my life, I’ve learned to have more compassion and patience with myself and recognize my emotions as the superpower they are, but unfortunately, other people, especially men have not learned to see the strength in the perceived weakness. We live in a culture that often sees the negatives first, rather than the beauty in difficult behavior. We do not realize how much an emotional person has suffered in his or her past and simply assume that something is “wrong with them” rather than they are healing from something bad that happened to them.
One young man reported to me that he broke things off with a woman he had been seeing on and off for many years. He wanted to know why she kept extending the conversation and brought up his family issues when he wanted to simply be done with the relationship. I was the first one to tell him that women often need to understand the situation and the WHY before moving on. You can’t walk in, state your truth after almost a decade and expect someone to say, “Sounds good. See you never.” Except that IS what he expected and he didn’t think to plan the conversation around what she may need to hear. To this woman’s credit, she called him out on his inability to process emotions that likely stemmed back to his broken relationship with a female family member who has a history of profound difficulties managing her emotions. She suggested individual therapy and a delay in decision making, he thought she was crazy and projecting onto him. He stormed out of the conversation.
If I could speak to this young woman, I would say bravo. It is unfortunate that he is not ready to see that his past is affecting his present but you never know if your bravery in sharing your thoughts and feelings during a difficult situation is the catalyst to get someone who is not in touch with his emotions into therapy or other personal growth pursuits. She is not crazy, she simply put the burden of responsibility back to where it belonged.
A friend of mine also recounted a trip with a woman he was thinking of rekindling a relationship with. She showed up on this trip as incredibly difficult, having trouble making decisions and seemed to be trying to control everything. She would ask to taste five different wines after asking for a recommendation. She wouldn’t accept his opinions. She invited other people to join them without asking him first. I agreed that she was being a pain in the ass but it also sounded like she was about to go through a major life change. The behavior was out of character for her. Rather than get to the bottom of what was REALLY going on, he literally left her in the middle of the trip unable to recognize that he also has control issues he needs to let go of!
When men run from “crazy” it is because they have a deep inability to deal with their own emotions. When I suggested he call her in a few weeks to check in and see how she was doing (since they have an almost two decade history together), he asked why he would check in with someone having “issues.” I simply said that when you have risen high enough in your own life and energy, extending compassion should not feel scary or like work. It is simply what emotionally secure people do with friends who are important to them. He hadn’t thought about it that way and asked for a referral so he can figure out what he needed to do to improve in this area in his life.
Extending compassion is what leaders do. Yet, too many of our men don’t realize that by not stepping into their true masculine energy (where emotions are dealt with in a healthy way), they actually can trigger deeply emotional people to become anxious and unhinged. Emotional people know when you are unavailable long before you have a clue and while it is on the emotional person to do his or her work to earn their emotional security, you also have to move away from avoidance to being open to dealing with emotions in a healthier manner.
People show up in our lives to be our mirrors of our own thoughts, feelings and emotional states. I’ve long learned to stay home when I’m feeling off as I know my emotions have a great impact on other people. Yet, when I feel like I’m on the top of the world, it is an energy to share with others, especially men, in order to help them learn how to ride the wave of emotions. Emotions are nothing to be scared of. They are simply data and information - some of us just have more access to this data than others. For example, when angry people started showing up in my life, I realized I probably had to process some anger related to the men in my family that I was repressing. When I took charge of my own development and healed my emotions, these people stopped showing up.
So the next time your brother, guy friend or co-worker tells you of yet another “crazy” woman in his dating life, listen with the ear of trying to help him. Be a teacher. Don’t criticize. He hasn’t learned that these women are showing up to teach him to let go of the control, to embrace his own emotions, and to harness their superpowers. They, do however, show up as a sign to deal with your own insecurity! When the day comes and he is ready to do that personal growth work, you can send him my way - he’ll never call an emotionally centered person “crazy” ever again - he’ll want to know where he has to grow in his security and will be willing to do the work to get to that place of peace.
Over the weekend, I decided to take a sabbatical from dancing and seek my own muse related to love and relationships. Mercury retrograde forced me to pause on editing my book and I thought that the inspiration about the great lyricist, Leonard Cohen would be just the ticket to helping me access my creativity. Leonard and Marianne is billed as a documentary about a love that lasts a lifetime. Perfect!
And then reality hit when I took out my cell phone in the middle of the movie to check the time.
The documentary was more about Leonard’s artistic prowess and Marianne’s insecurities. It should have been a story of empowerment and strength by one of the most powerfully inspiring female creative role models of our time. As annoyed as I was by the way the story was told, I wasn’t surprised. We have love affairs with the creative genius who can’t quite commit to the love of his life, often dismissing the gifts and skills of the “other” romantic partner as insignificant in comparison.
We have this love affair because we don’t really understand what a soulmate actually is nor do we understand what a real muse is.
A soulmate doesn’t always last a lifetime, they show up to rip you apart and force you to heal your toxic insecurity. There is little doubt that both Leonard and Marianne had a lot of work to do in that area and, fortunately for both of them - they recognized the opportunity. Their legacy, provides some of the most important lessons on love and relationships. This, unfortunately, was not fully explored in the documentary as, like our culture, the filmmaker gets distracted by Leonard’s career and drug use and fails to pull back the curtain to fully see the genius in Marianne.
Difference Between Using a Woman and Inspiration by a Muse
Throughout the entire documentary, Marianne is called Leonard’s “muse.” We are familiar with the term. Most of our greatest artists have credited their greatest life work to a muse - usually a woman. Many have claimed that the experience of love won and then lost and perhaps won again is the greatest artistic inspiration there is. Perhaps it still is but I suggest that we begin to take a look at the difference between a creative genius taking the energy of a person whom he deems as his muse versus the genius of being in the presence of true creative inspiration. For example, I would argue that Picasso’s women were anything but muses. He sought out young and beautiful women who did not have the gifts of true creative inspiration. He often left them broken, angry, and in one case, with a tale of unflattering stories that was published in the form of a memoir. He left his family devastated due to his narcissism. His granddaughter, Marina, reported that Picasso:
“... submitted them to his animal sexuality, tamed them, bewitched them, ingested them, and crushed them onto his canvas. After he had spent many nights extracting their essence, once they were bled dry, he would dispose of them.”
Picasso is NOT the story of an artist using muses - he was a predator that stole the beauty from others and used it for his own selfish purposes.
Leonard and Marianne’s story is quite different. It shows it can all be done with a type of love that transcends time.
Where did the term muse come from?
In Greek mythology, there are technically 9 different muses, whose job was to be the holder of different artistic talents. They were the daughters of Zeus, king of the gods, and Mnemosyne, goddess of memory. Muses were not only beautiful but had the healing power of transformation. When their powers were bestowed upon a mortal, it is said that this person presents as drastically different from others who simply want to take from the artist. The muse Clio, is often shown holding a scroll or books. Her job was to make artists famous. She was a source of inspiration to poets.
If we had to choose which ancient Greek muse Marianne represented, Clio would come to mind. There is little doubt in my mind that Leonard never would have become who he was without the incubation and transformation he went through as a writer and a man while living with Marianne in Hydra. Her creative inspiration was powerful enough to encourage a man, still stuck in the academic notion that he would become a novelist, to change direction. Had it not been for her and his need to seek out money to take care of his family, he would not have been motivated to seek a new direction. Couple this with a break down following a major literary failure, it is clear that Marianne was part of Leaonard’s spiritual and creative awakening.
True muses are not just beautiful, they often have gifts that we simply do not acknowledge as equally important to the creative process. Marianne possessed the warmth and unwavering support that a struggling artist needs to breakthrough to the next level of success. From the outside, they are usually recognized as the one romantic relationship that does not succumb to the stardom of the artist. Marianne was described as “different” in the film and boy was she ever.
Marianne was the epitome of the real deal
Marianne was a genius in the realm of creative inspiration and yet, like most women, sacrificed her true gift and talent to solely romantic love. I hate to think how many world class artists this woman could have inspired to move past their fear and step on to the stage of greatness if she realized that was actually her purpose in the world! She inspired others by simply being who she was and that is a powerful gift to share! Unfortunately, her self doubts and insecurities interfered with her own ability, at least at a young age, to see her powerful gift.
Marianne’s greatness will always be clouded by Leonard’s great success and the story that he tells, through his music, of their great love. The documentary starts off doing a relatively good job trying to find the balance in the love story between the two - one that starts with Marianne ending the karmic relationship with her first husband, novelist Axel Jensen, who abandoned her and their son for another woman.
Marianne’s real story and lesson for all of us started in childhood. A creative soul in an uncreative family, she early on stated that she wanted to be an actress but without the support of her family, she abandoned her dream. Like so many young, sensitive women whose soul’s have been crushed by well meaning family members, she did what you could to find your freedom in the 1960s - you left and found yourself in an expat, artistic community. You left and got married to the first person artistic soul you find.
Her own soul was trying to force her to fly. Her doomed relationship, as all karmic ones are, was trying to teach the lesson - that she could squelch herself into mediocrity or she could realize that she was probably the one true artistic talent among a bunch of men who benefited from her creative energy. Dealing with loss, heartbreak and a lack of support, it is easy to get swept away in a love affair with a true artistic genius. I believe, and the documentary argues, that Leonard was there to heal her soul - something that he did for almost a decade before they both realized, in the shadow of his fame, that the relationship could go no further. Leonard wasn’t ready and Marianne knew she needed more support. It is unfortunate that the film does not go deeper into these aspects of the relationship - there is so much for the rest of us to learn from these details!
At the officially ending of their relationship, it really was supposed to be Marianne’s time to realize that while Leonard was a soulmate, his job was to encourage her to also take the chances on her dreams. Leonard didn’t seem to understand that his role could have been more active in encouraging her creativity and pushing her to face her fears. Life took over. Unfortunately, with a son who was struggling, her duties as a mother came first and Leonard had moved on to another long term relationship. Marianne sought stability in what the documentary kept calling an “ordinary” life. And in this one life decision, Marianne’s gift would never be shared with the world again. Rather than fight for what she really wanted, she got stuck in the shadow side of her soul purpose and ran away. She could have been the rebel with a cause and really have shown Leonard what he was missing out on - but she was unable to face the fears and got swept away by the responsibilities of life. This is what happens to many of our true creative souls.
It is always one thing to look at these relationships and realize what the purpose of them are in our lives. Soulmates does not mean forever in the traditional sense. We trap ourselves into definitions of what a relationship is supposed to look like - often causing deep pain and sorrow. I believe that the relationship with Leonard broke her in many ways. His inability to fully commit his attention to her must have been deeply painful and yet profoundly spiritual. There is little doubt that these two were supposed to have met, it simply breaks my heart that Marianne didn’t see her own artistic genius and own her ability to inspire creativity in all of us. She was supposed to learn and incubate herself as well. She never fully got that chance to do so with other artists and I can only hope that she produced a beautiful body of work with her painting that the wold, one day, will be able to see.
Why We All Needed Marianne
Marianne was the creative inspiration we all need and still need. Never someone who needed to be in the spotlight, she was a woman who did her best to live life on her own terms and in her own way. She did not follow the rules but yet succumbed to them in the end. Mediocrity rather than true exquisiteness snuck in simply because her view on two of the most significant relationships of her life may have been focused on the pain and not believing in herself. A karmic relationship breaks you and a soulmate shows you what love is. Perhaps her real victory was in living the rest of her life in the stability of a healthy and happy marriage. We don’t know yet. But if she had channeled what she learned from those relationships and realized her capacity for true creative inspiration, our entire world would have been a better place. Had she shown up in her true exquisite power - that love story may have turned out very differently. Leonard needed a woman truly committed to her soul purpose and unafraid to take the risks to move him out of his own spiritual narcissism. Marianne needed a spiritual warrior with the strength to help her move past her fears about being the true creative rebel.
Marianne’s Lesson For Us All
Marianne was the real deal - Leonard was just the genius who recognized it. Let’s make sure we don’t miss those exquisite diamonds standing behind those in the spotlight again. Let’s reach out to support them in moving past their own fears. A true muse for a creative genius is not the person who sits idly looking beautiful, it is the person that consciously brings the gift of creative transformation. That is Marianne’s legacy. We could all learn from Leonard and Marianne that it takes not just talent to rise to the top but openness to true love to transcend mediocrity to open the door to greatness.
After recently exiting a short but “it’s complicated” relationship, I had too much time on my hands and a busy mind that needed to heal. Trying to understand what happened in an “it’s complicated” relationship is, after all, totally normal. My solution? I scrolled endlessly through my several zodiac and astrology apps. Co- Star became my best friend, The Pattern became my guru, and my $9.99 a month Tarot+ app gave me a chance to do more readings than I could ever dream of! I was told, “Today, you will break down”, “That little void is going to lie empty for another 2 months and it will all be okay”, etc. The stars shone light on what I was missing out on but they also told me that my partner wasn’t my sun and my moon after all. (Yeah right- easy for you to say Co- Star!) These daily motivational quotes did get me out of bed but they didn’t exactly have a plan to recover from a bad breakup. I still had to figure out how to avoid that pint of ice cream!
While this may seem like an angry hate letter to the man I thought was the center of my Universe for a hot second, it really is a note of hope and guidance to everyone looking to recover from these types of relationships. Yes, Mercury, Venus, Neptune and Jupiter can take our love lives with them into retrograde, our pasts can cause us to accrue a load of self- doubt, and anxiety always making us spiral. Yet, in the midst of all the tears, ice- cream eating, self- loathing and trash- talking, we can remember to take care of ourselves. So I’m going to bring in some crystal talk and help you take the right steps to find the real answers to healing those karmic relationships you thought were your life long soulmates. Because, in reality, these relationships really suck, drain the life out of you, and leave you feeling like WTF just happened!
Peel the Past, Heal the Present, Seal the Future
Every website, every guide, every friend will CHANT the same old mantra: “Move on! Move on!” I’m not going to deny the power of “moving on”, but I will ask you to process it before you move on. “Getting over it”, does not, like a lot of people say, mean getting under someone else- it means getting a hold of the situation and making sense of everything you shared with your partner. It may take you a while to acknowledge the good, but once you do, you will remember the good that YOU did. Meditate over all the things you did super right before you try to forget all the things they did right. Get a hold of it, get over it, heal yourself, say “thank you, next”, and repeat. And when you feel strong enough, send them some loving kindness to wish them the very best in their future.
Don’t Mull Until You Are Dull - A Breakup is Not the End, Just a New Beginning
You’re not in an episode of Gossip Girl, nor are you a character from The Notebook. Our first loves, no matter what age, drain all of us - physically, emotionally, and spiritually. With age, however, we have a lot more resources at our disposal. Besides the cognitive skills I have accumulated over the 22 years, I have also gained access to wine, gym memberships, yoga mats, and makeup. So after you have meditated over your past, wake up one morning and start with the first step- bathe in the sun on your yoga mat and develop a practice that makes you feel better. Go for a great workout session (look around- you might find someone that can carry not only 120 pound weights but also a little more attachment security!) Look good, feel good and enjoy a great glass of wine at the end of the day!
Innovate at Any Rate - Creativity Heals
Our emotions can get take many shapes and forms- drunk texts, petty unfollows, and sob emails (yes, these are all my emotional avatars). This time, I decided to change things up and it felt so good! So every time you want to listen to a heartbroken song- write one instead. If your arms and legs feel the need to punch a bag, break the dance floor at a local Tango club. If your fingers itch to open your message app, open your notes app and publish a groundbreaking article! (What do you think I’m doing?) Follow your deepest, darkest hidden passions and invest in a new hobby. Don’t be a cheapskate- innovate!
Stop Stalking, Keep Walking
It’s such a small world, right? Yes, so you will bump into them. You might even make sure you go to their favorite local evening bar to catch a glimpse of them. More so, if you see them with another date on their instagram story, you might google map straight off to that location. How’s that going to end? I’ve always envisioned bumping into my ex on the street, falling into his arms, and sharing the second best kiss of my entire life with him- BEEP! No. The steps mentioned above are keys to the answer- and the answer is most likely going to be- toxicity. Charge your crystals and carry them around and keep walking with your head held high.
Karmic relationships come charged with passion, romance and lessons. They resemble the Hinge app- they are “designed to be deleted” and the only thing you take away from them are the lessons and perhaps, the memories. Swipe left on all the negativity, and super like yourself, the world, and the millions of opportunities that lie ahead of you. Your destiny is not tied to a relationship or a partner- carve out time to go on your own adventures and seek your own truth and meaning. Be the best version of yourselves before you search for better fish in the sea!
“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” - Marilyn Monroe
From Breakup to Breakthrough
Through the years, I have worked with many clients who sought to get over a breakup and “move on” as quickly as possible. The thinking is that if we wallow in our pain for too long, we will miss opportunities. As I have gone through my healing journey, with the last portion of it as a single woman, I can tell you that being single allows you to explore what it is you need without sacrificing your spiritual and emotional development for the needs of someone else. In fact, I believe that all parents and married couples who go through a spiritual awakening while in relationships should be given a medal - it is the most exhausting, taxing and emotional experience one can go through!
If on the other hand, you start the process while you are single, you can not only grieve the part of you that is not currently in a relationship, you can begin to actually get to know yourself. It is in the process of re-discovering who you really are that will eventually lead you to the RIGHT relationship.
As I talk about extensively in my forthcoming book, Toxic Insecurity, the estimates of how much trauma our culture has experienced are astounding. Add in that you may carry the trauma of your family through the generation and the estimates of who has been touched by trauma skyrocket. Conservatively we are looking at 50-60% of the population. In other words, we all have a lot of healing and emotional work to do before we meet the right person.
Growth Not Perfection
Does this mean that we need to be perfectly healed before we get into a relationship? Absolutely not. It does, however, mean learning to not abandon yourself in a relationship so that you can continue on your journey. Many of the relationships along the way will be karmic in nature - they will appear to help you with your spiritual development and push you along your path. It is, however, your responsibility to learn to recognize the signs that someone is choosing to join you on that path or is not ready. This is where many of us get caught on our journey and why being single rather than married to the wrong person is truly a blessing in disguise.
Our culture teaches us to be attracted to narcissistic people. They display a false sense of confidence, they are usually financially successful and they appear to run the world. Underneath the exterior, however, is someone who could never meet our emotional needs because they struggle to even identify or own their own. Narcissists appear to teach you valuable lessons along your journey. If you are paying attention, you will quickly learn that these personalities are attracted to you and your rising light simply because they have an unconscious wish to do the same but are actively choosing to not do the work.
A Narcissist is your Opportunity
How many times have you thought that someone was NOT a narcissist because you saw potential in them? I have. And while those people may not meet criteria for a personality disorder, the self-involved behavior is a sign of emotionally unavailability. It does not matter for what reason, it simply signals that this person - even if you have had past lives together - is not ready in this current life to wake up and assist you in your growth. It is this realization and learning that make karmic relationships vitally important for our overall development.
Some of us, however, are not so lucky. We married the narcissist and may be going through a nasty divorce. We may have married the narcissist, divorced, and refused to do our work so we ended up marrying another one. Taking the time in your single status to actively work through your spiritual and emotional development is the only way to stop the merry-go-round of toxic relationships.
When you are single, you can choose to go on a retreat. You can choose to go to therapy. You can choose to go to yoga or a healer. You can choose to meditate. You can choose to spend time with like minded friends. You can choose all of these avenues of healing without fear that someone you are responsible for is going to disapprove.
So why is it that so many of my single clients simply refuse to continue living via the status quo?
You have spent your whole life being told by your family, community and culture that being brave and doing what it is you need to do to take care of yourself is a stupid idea. You’ve been taught to value your finances over your emotional and mental health. You have been taught to value status over taking a radical inventory of what you actually value in life. Stepping away from everything you have ever known to give yourself the space for a reboot is not easy. I have, however, looked at my client’s successes and realized that the ones who are ready to embrace their exploratory nature and take chances, are the ones rewarded with finding their soul purpose AND a life partner.
I promise it can be done. I’ve done it on more than one occasion!
Ever since I was old enough to understand crushes and relationships, I have relied on any and every sign that could point me towards how my relationships were going to unfold. From Linda Goodman’s zodiac sagacity to the hundreds of Cosmopolitan quizzes, anything that I thought would calm my nerves was always scattered on my desktop. By the time I reached my twenties and started pursuing the men I had swiped right on, I was perplexed by how to quickly ascertain the data I needed to make the best decisions in my love life.. Surely the actual stories of these men were deeper than the modest amounts of information on their dating profiles. I mean I’m not sure that the fish they held with heavy pride, quotes derived from popular/ rap music, and/ or links to their creative instagram pages were all that helpful? Several dates, many drinks and a few failed relationships later, I decided it was time to figure out how to extract the information that I needed in less than ten dates. While I’m still trying to find my Mr. Perfect online, I thought I would share my step-by-step guide to tackling the real Tinder experience.
Eject the Stigma
Just because you’re on a date with a stranger from a dating app, it does not make you any less than your girlfriend who met her love in a cafe or amusement park. Congratulate yourself for expanding your horizons and for putting yourself out there. The judgement from society can wait! Enjoy that rush of adrenaline and wash it down with some wine.
Leave your Rating Scale Behind
You’re nervous, you’re excited, you’re scared. Don’t worry! I guarantee he is too! It doesn’t matter what either of you are looking for- you’re doing it together- as absolute strangers! If he dropped a fry or spilled a cup of water, give him a chance to clean his mess before you bring out the judgement police within you. I, too, once tried to end a date as soon as he spilled his wine on himself. Thank goodness I didn’t! After all, my patience was rewarded not only by a pity glass of wine from the waiter, but also a great conversation towards the end of my night with him.
Your Past Doesn’t Predict your Future and Neither Does His!
Talking about all your missed connections will probably ensure you miss this one too. Moreover, asking him about his horrible Tinder experiences will not prevent him from using your date as an anecdote for his next one. Be present in the moment and focus on what he brings to the table. Discussing your pasts will only make room for biases and preconceived notions that will end up driving your date towards a dead end.
The Sun and the Mood Can Guide you but It Isn’t a Magical Formula
Every date with a stranger has always brought up one very important question in my mind:“Is his sun sign vicious? Does his rising sign guard behaviors that I can’t see? Oh god- I hope he’s not a Gemini!” While all these factors can tell you the overall strengths and weaknesses of his character, we have to exert some patience. Why are we so hasty to want to know the end point before we even begin the uncovering process? Where’s the chase? In the end, their zodiac can’t really prove if they’ll make you a mean steak on your next date! (Actually, their sun signs will never give you an accurate picture at all. You would need todo a full birth chart analysis and I’m not sure that’s really appropriate for a first date!)
They say there are many fish in the sea. Reeling in too tight will put you at risk of snapping your line, losing out on possibly the biggest catch of your life! Hook, line and sinker with all your heart! The only control you have over the process is the quality of bait you show up with on your date! Don’t worry about how they come off, just give them the best version of you!. Online dating, like all other kinds of dating, is a trial and error affair- you’ll find what you find as soon as you get out of your head and into the present moment! So go tinker with Tinder and socialize like the Bumble bee you are! You never know who you are going to meet!